Songs of Eretz Poetry
Review is
pleased to present “red light” by John Reinhart. One-time
beginner yo-yo champion, state fiddle and guitar champion, tinkerer, and
certifiable eccentric, John Reinhart lives in the Weird, between now and never,
collecting and protecting discarded treasures, and whistling combinations of
every tune he knows. His poetry has recently been published in: Apeiron
Review, Black Heart Magazine, FishFood & LavaJuice Magazine, Liquid
Imagination, Star*Line, and Vocabula
Review. You can listen to him fiddle at http://reinhartbrothers.bandcamp.com/.
red light
John Reinhart
stop, check the rearview--
unlike Snow White’s
stepmother, I saw not
myself, but like her mirror,
my rearview reflected a
gorgeous visage:
my life’s love,
my one and only true soul mate
long lost better half
checking her lipstick in her
own rearview,
a comfortable yet cozy six
feet behind my bumper,
a safe and reasonable distance
according to driver’s ed
her car was clean, six
cylinders, not ostentatious
with good gas mileage
according to the sticker at the lot, practical
dependable strong loyal
independent spontaneous when necessary
attractive a good listener -
all the same characteristics she
would see in me and many I
value in a woman, this woman
the one behind the wheel
behind my wheel stopped, as if by
chance or fate at the same red
beacon of universal karmic law
in the same effervescence of
diesel fumes CO2 eroding
asphalt and anxious morning
coffee please-don’t-let-me-be-late
sweat of the modern workforce
wage roundup
she glowed like the check
engine light on my dash,
conjuring images of Thursday
nights turned Fridays out sick
oh, the collaboration of all
those features in her
face, forming the look of the
girl next door or the
house one over or the one who
could have been an actress
or a model or a porn star or
maybe one of those waitresses
you meet in the corner bistros
with good food and decent prices
who are probably working in
the family biz but just until they make the break
not a waitress you know for
only ten minutes but one who sits
down for a drink during lunch
rush, ignores the boss the clock the customers,
gazes into her cup reading the
entrails of foam then quits quietly,
walks out with dignity, arm in
arm out of work
without a care into sunlight
into the sunset into
the rest of her life into the
end credits into the car behind
mine at the red light on 17th and Sheridan
where our lives
meet, mingle, and progress
instantaneously into eternity
wedded by the rearview mirror,
never looking back,
writing our futures
intuitively
we make love with our eyes
with our eyes closed on the beach in the elevator in the backseat of my car
just out of view of the rearview mirror on the floor on the table, at red
lights while traffic
passes like buffalo or mosquitoes
at dusk, horns ablaze yet weaving past our hazards,
blocking the road and paving another,
our road,
the road, the superhighway of
all time where
speed has no limits and time
has no speed and the
grass is always green, where
we recline in the moss, together
inexplicably indelibly
improbably inexorably inevitably
by a chance fated necessary
meeting in mirrors at a light
that said stop: stop and
notice, see the roses,
then I saw her waving,
motioning, gesturing,
communicating – it was all
overwhelming – crying, laughing,
both at once, in cryptic code –
a moment passed
and then another
then I realized, I knew, I
understood:
yes,
the inevitable
as I looked behind me, she
turned the wheel, redirected
fate and like the energizer
itself, reconfigured my molecules
before dumping my newly
configured body into another reality,
she passed me, still
gesticulating with more animation than classic
Looney Tunes on Saturdays
past, followed by an overweight Ford
with an accountant, lust in
his eyes and a coffee perched perilously
on an attitude of eternal
defeat, then station wagon with a woman
off to man a desk and phone
and listen to people complain about
a service she knows nothing
about
I looked up
to see the light
once red was adamantly green
and the horns of passing
cattle prodded me to go
I leaned on the accelerator,
only faintly realizing
the loss of truth, beauty, and
love,
but the light turned red again
–
this time my mirror revealed a
haggard man with three kids in the
car, a ringing in his ears, a
bald spot growing on his forehead,
and no love or longing or lust
or even recognition
in his heart for me, stuck at
the red light at 17th and Sheridan
again
Poet’s
Notes: Is hindsight
really 20/20? Not if the future is behind us.
The idea of
holding infinity in the palm of your hand is the beauty of Romantic
transcendence caught in the web of modern conceit. There is more than a little
bit of self-mockery in this poem, as a Romantic, a man, and a devoted husband
and father, interlaced with commentary about expectations, dreams, and the
Mitty-fold potential of the infinite instants that compose the nine-to-five
countdown to Taps.
Keats was
exceptional at elegantly capturing this sense of eternal moments. I tried to
capture a similar sentiment with the exception that not only is this a
fictitious moment, but the fictitious dream never came to be, and the poet
whose head we enter is in fact holding up traffic. What a nuisance!
I composed
the basis for this poem in my head during my daily commute, which takes me past
17th and Sheridan twice daily six days a week. When I sat down to write this, I
poured in every commuting image and sound, and then punctuated with deadly
seriousness and sardonic humor, both of which are in easy reach when I ponder
early morning traffic.
Editor’s
Note: The most beautiful and enduring
possibilities in life can be denied in a moment--in the duration of a red
light. What a thought-provoking and moving poetic conceit! The
final four stanzas, where the narrator snaps out of his reverie, hit me like a
bucket of ice water to the face, with the final stanza, whether interpreted as
foreshadowing or not, leaving me stunned. "red light" first appeared in the November 2014 issue of Songs of Eretz Poetry E-zine.